To my walls

Dear walls, you have seen and heard everything, 

and I know you have seen me at my worst 

but have you ever seen me at my best, 

for I can't remember. 

You have seen me break-down into silent sops of forsaken nightmares 

but how often have you heard my laughter? 
-Remind me now, for I need to know that all were not black. 

Dear walls, you've seen me love and hate with the same fire, 

tell me what do I wear better? 

Tell me if I look better with tears soaked angry smiles 

or with the lifeless smile of a rotting spirit? 
-Remind me now, for I need to know that all were not as bad. 

Dear walls, you've seen me slip into the wide open arms of self hate 

and crawl through the filth of existence to a semblance of life, 

tell me why do you stay still? 

Tell me, dear wall, that there is a reason still of why you and I are here still. 
- Remind me now, for I need a reason to live another day.